Thanks, I'm trying sis, I sure wished we lived closer, I have a feeling we could form a close sisterly bond, something that I desperately need in my life, I am blessed that I've been able to break those toxic, dysfunctional cycles in my family, I will never understand why they can't see or acknowledge the positive changes I've made in my life, and I did not choose to continue the toxic cycle of alcohol abuse like my sister has, she and I have never been close, we were both raised differently, I was not planned, while she was, I was the one that got the brunt of the abuse, while she skated by in life and was able to have whatever she wanted, I feel cheated! I made a promise when I was young that my kids would always know how much they're loved and accepted, I've not been a perfect mom, I had alot I had to unlearn and relearn as a mom, wife, friend, family member, I fought long and hard to get where I am today, and they've never once acknowledged it! I will never understand... sometimes I feel so broken, and other times when I look into my husband's eyes, and my boys and my pets, I just can't help but feel so blessed, I believe I've moved past the hurt; however I will never understand why... I could go on, but I know we both had a rough childhood, and I never want you to feel as if my childhood was worse than yours, we both were victims, along with your sweet sister Sally, such a precious child, my heart hurts for you, and if I ever get the chance to meet you, I will greet you with the biggest sisterly hug 🤗

Unable to sleep as I've found some disappointing news earlier this evening, can't help but feel like such a stranger with my family, their way of thinking is so warped and twisted, I will never understand why things happened the way they did, and why they are still happening today, feeling like such an outsider